Fall Down And Never Get Back Up Again

Cherrybliss: (c) ~emptysighs
Shadowrain : (c) ~Shadowrainx
Rainfeather : (c) ~SilverMoonNightMist
Artwork : (c) ~SilverMoonNightMist
Role-play : (c) ~emptysighs, ~Shadowrainx, ~SilverMoonNightMist

So I felt like drawing a scene from a RP between me, Shadowrain () and Cherrybliss ()

I put the RP below if you want to read it (It's huge though) XD

But here's a small summary for the ones who aren't feeling like reading a wall of text :3

Cherrybliss (The brown tortoiseshell) has a crush on Shadowrain (the black tom), who's Rainfeather's (the silver and white she-cat) mate. Shadowrain told Cherrybliss that he didn't want to have her as a mate because he loves Rainfeather, so Cherrybliss said that Rainfeather didn't love him as much as he thinks she does. Shadowrain told that to Rainfeather who decided to go and talk with Cherrybliss, it ended up in a heated conversation, that is the RP below ^^




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(Cherrybliss’s post)

Cherrybliss squeezed her eyes shut, tight, only to slowly open them once more. Black fuzzy dots clouded her vision, but she seemed to ignore them, and they showed no presence in the depths of her blue eyes. The she-cat lifted her head slowly to stare at the cloud-strewn firmament, their white puffy outline reflecting in her gaze. She bit her tongue, then stood up and shook out her fur. "It's.. it's not worth sulking over, " she shrugged, then let her shoulders fall carelessly, "What is done is done, right?" she breathed, "Right." the feline agreed with herself, with a curt nod. She began her way back to camp, her tail drooping behind her. She let her eyelids sluggishly close and focused her sense of smell on her path back home. Back to her family... her, ".. no friends." She mewed, pursing her lips, "You still have Dappledrose.." she mumbled to herself as she entered through the gorse tunnel, nearly bumping into the frame as she directed her attention elsewhere for a split second.

(My post)
Rainfeather sighed, closing her eyes as she thought. After a few heartbeats, she opened her eyes and looked up at her mate. "Fine, you can stay in the bushes, but you have to be at least ten fox-lenghts away from us and you DON'T leap out of the bushes to shred Cherrybliss if she insults me… understood ?" She asked seriously.

(Shadowrain’s post)
Shadowrain pouted. "Fineee," he grinned, licking her ear affectionately. "Tell me somehow when I can come up and speak, okay?" he asked.

(Cherrybliss’s post)

The mottled cream feline entered the large glade tensely, struggling to keep her fur flat on her skin. She hastily scanned the camp before fully padding across the clearing. The she-cat kept her head low as she headed for the warriors den, careful not to be seen by anyone; especially not Shadowrain. She probably wouldn't be able to face him at the moment, her thoughts seemed to be whirling in her mind and she couldn't get rid of the devastating ringing constantly buzzing.

(My post)
Rainfeather took in a huge breath, trying to stop her heart from bursting out of her chest. The silver and white tabby she-cat padded outside of the medicine-cat's den and stood in the clearing, the brightness of the outside dazzled Rainfeather's eyes, she had been accustomed to the darkness of the medicine-cat's den for the last three days. Her pupils narrowed to slits and her vision adjusted. She nervously scanned the clearing, looking for a familiar looking cream and brown mottled pelt. Looking at her right, she saw Cherrybliss entering the Warrior's den. "Wait !" Rainfeather meowed, trotting to the Elite warrior.

(Shadowrain’s post)
Shadowrain waited for the two she-cat's to begin speaking, shifting from paw to paw nervously.

(Cherrybliss’s post)

Cherrbliss jumped, swiftly turning around to face the voice, "W-what?" she squeaked, pulling her ears back as she recognized Rainfeather. She narrowed her eyes, "What do you want..?" the warrior queried, taking a small step away from the patched she-cat. There couldn't be much right? Shadowrain wouldn't have been able to tell her what she did, right? right? It was only a few hours ago, there's no way. But what if he did? What if he got the chance to tell her, is Rainfeather mad with Cherrybliss? No, she thought, relaxing her eyelids. She tried to meet her clan-mate's gaze bravely, but every ounce of her was telling her to hide.

(My post)
"I-I wanted to talk with you... alone." Rainfeather forced herself to hold Cherrybliss's blue gaze with her equally blue one. The silver and white she-cat, fluffed her fur slightly, trying to hide the fresh scars etched on her back. She flicked her tail and shifted her paws nervously.

(Cherrybliss’s post)
"With... me." she echoed in slight disbelief. Cherrybliss wasn't very close with Rainfeather... at least not like Shadowrain used to be. The feline breathed steadily, pushing her brow together and hanging her head for a moment, then slowly lifting her gaze back to Rainfeather, "..What about?" she questioned, tilting her head to the side with minor interest, mostly hope that it wouldn't be about.. earlier.

(My post)
Rainfeather opened her mouth, then closed it immediately, thinking about her reply. " StarClan, what did I get myself into ? " She thought, shifting her paws awkwardly. She took a deep breath a mewed. "Well..." the end of the sentence trailed off into silence as Rainfeather debated wether she should, or shouldn't tell Cherrybliss what really was in her mind. "I-It's about... you and me." She blurted out, forcing herself to hold Cherrybliss's gaze still. "I-I know we've been quite distant since.. since well, the incident with Shadowrain.." Her voice grew weaker and she had to gulp.

(Shadowrain’s post)
Shadowrain was wondering which incident with Shadowrain, Rainfeather was speaking of, but said nothing obediently. He had promised his mate to be quiet.

(Cherrybliss’s post)
"About us.." The marbled feline murmured shakily, narrowing her eyes to chilling icy slits. She tilted her chin upwards, her long white whiskers twitching formally as she began to speak again. "The incident." she repeated delicately. Her pale ginger ear swiveled foward, indicated she was now interested in what her clanmate had to say, "Well, what is it? I thought what happened was pretty simple." she spoke, her tone intentionally harsh. "Did Shadowrain not explain it enough for you?"


(My post)
Rainfeather inwardly flinched at Cherrybliss's harsh tone but didn't let it show. "Okay." Rainfeather huffed, knowing that turning around and trying to be polite would lead nowhere if she was alone to do it. "Shadowrain told me what you said about me," She tried to speak as calmly as she could, being conscient of how rude her speech must sound to the mottled warrior. "You know very well that what you said isn't true," She meowed. "Why did you say that?" She asked, her voice softening, her eyes genuine, the silver and white tabby she-cat only wanted to understand.

(Cherrybliss’s post)
The lithe warrior's muscles tensed underneath her mottled pelt. She tilted her head to the side, and smiled for a moment, before letting it fade slowly from her muzzle. "I'm glad he told you." she went to growl, but held it back. She wasn't in the mood to argue with Rainfeather, she felt broken and betrayed. Like everything bad in the world was finally crashing down on her shoulders. She wanted to collapse in her nest and forget everything and everyone. She knew that wouldn't happen, at least not now. Now, she was stuck here, facing the one she dreaded facing most. Her jaw trembled slightly as she opened her maw to speak, "I said it because I believe it to be true.." she trailed off, holding Rainfeathers gaze. "I don't care if it's true or not. I just can't help not finding a flaw on you, not anywhere." she took a step forward, "You're just so perfect and.. I.. hate how," Cherrybliss had pause to swallow a lump that had formed in her throat. "I hate how you took him from me.. I hate everything.. everything you've done with him, everything you've said about him, everything he's said about you," she shook her head, trying to rid that ringing once more, "It haunts me everyday.. every single day, knowing that he loves you more than me, and I just can't.. I can't take it!" the marbled feline unsheathed her claws, clasping her jaw shut and squeezing her eyes closed. ".. I can't."

(My post)
Rainfeather listened, like hypnotised by Cherrybliss, the silver and white tabby she-cat just stood there, silent, her ears folded back on her skull. Part of Rainfeather would have liked to yell ' I KNEW it! She DID had a crush on you ' to Shadowrain, but she just couldn't say that, she was too stunned, simply speechless. " I can't help I can't find a single flaw on you, you're so perfect, I hate it how you took everything away from me.” Cherrybliss's words rang through her ears, Rainfeather only wanted to run away and hide, her eyes welled up with tears and she had to swallow to hold them back. "I-it's only jealousy... Cherrybliss... I-I'm far from perfect... you know that too.." Rainfeather's voice trembled as she mewed quietly, she tentatively stretched her tail to touch Cherrybliss's shoulder with the tip.

(Shadowrain’s post)
Shadowrain blinked, as if he could blink Cherrybliss away so he could run to Rainfeather and tell her what he thought. But he'd promised her to not interfere. This was going to be a hard promise.

(Cherrybliss’s post)
Cherrybliss recoiled from Rainfeather's touch, "Jealousy isn't an excuse! It doesn't change how I see you and it doesn't help me cope with myself at all! It only makes me feel worse and whether I know I'm jealous of you or not.. it doesn't stop me from wanting to-" she cut her sentence off abruptly. It was none of Rainfeather's business what she thought about. Why was she even telling her this? The she-cat pushed the thouhgt away, she just couldn't hold it in any longer. She was tired of secrets… tired of a lot of things. "As.. long as he loves you, you're perfect to me." she said, her voice cracking as her blue eyes darkened with every word, "I don't care what you think, I'm tired of being.." a hesitation. "Me.." the warrior finished, staring eye-to-eye with Rainfeather, her cool gaze now blazing, as her hackles raised with resentment.


(Shadowrain’s post)
Shadowrain had to push himself behind a neary tree, one that was prickly. He flinched at the touch of the thorns, but knew they'd keep him from racing over to attack Cherrybliss. For now at least.

(My post)
Rainfeather whisked her tail away as soon as she saw Cherrybliss flinch away. She kept staring at Cherrybliss, confused, scared, she felt as everything she had known about the mottled warrior came crashing down around her. One thought stuck above all the others in Rainfeather's brain. Sympathy. This cat was hurting, badly. "I'm sorry.." She meowed, her broken voice was only above a whisper. "I'm truly, sincerely, sorry Cherrybliss," Her voice was trembling with emotion as she tried to make it hold together. "I didn't know I could cause so much pain... so much.... hatred... by being with the one I love.." Rainfeather held the mottled brown warrior's blue gaze, tears sled down from her eyes, glistening on her white-furred cheeks.

(Shadowrain’s post)
Shadowrain wondered if Rainfeather was going to end up breaking up with him so Cherrybliss would shut up. He had to restrain himself again.

(Cherrybliss’s post)
"It doesn't matter anymore." she snapped, clenching her teeth tightly together. Never has she felt so much.. anger, not even when she was in conflict with Shadowrain. She felt as if all her emotions were finally starting to show, and all this anger built up over the moons.. was ready to explode. She took a few steps back; the hatred becoming a bit overwhelming, "Yo-you're not sorry for anything," she barked, incapable of deciding whether to sheathe or unsheathe her claws. So many thoughts.. so many aggravating thoughts. "I don't care what you think! You don't matter to me! Shadowrain doesn't matter to me! None of you matter!" she flinched as her lips twitched into a cracked snarl, her glacial eyes lit with fuming, pure hate. "I can't handle feeling like this anymore!" a piercing hiss slid through her knotted jaw, "I'm not strong enough to handle all this.. I'm done! I'm just done!" The warrior finished, barging past Rainfeather, out into the forest. Her hearing was blocked out by the pounding of blood, roaring in her ears as she hurried through the dense, rotting undergrowth, and straying bramble bushes. Her thin frame leaped swiftly over a fallen log, making her way to anywhere.. she just wanted to leave this place, just get away from everyone and everything… maybe she'd be better off.

(My post)
As Cherrybliss’s anger built up, Rainfeather was flinching, at each sentence, the silver-and-white tabby she-cat had be recoiling, crouching lower and lower, staring in fear at Cherrybliss. As the mottled warrior stormed away, Rainfeather was so low that she was nearly flattened to the ground, her gray ears were folded on her skull so tightly that they looked embedded in her fur, her chin was stuck in the dirt and the white rims were showing around her eyes. If Cherrybliss would’ve added a last word, the next step for Rainfeather would have probably been rolling on her back and beg for mercy, or flee. The silver and white warrior waited a few heartbeats, her whole body trembling uncontrollably. Then she slowly sat up, taking in a shaky breath. Her shoulders shook as she tried, and failed, to stifle a sob. She had failed, miserably failed. The only chance she had to be at peace with Cherrybliss was gone forever.



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